If Jesus died for sin, Why can't I live how I want

 Many people have this question. I once asked this question out of ignorance. I never truly understood this until I did a study of my own. People had tried to explain to me but I just never fully understood. In my experience it was taught with fear of going to hell so don't sin with a list of things you can't do. Now that I understand I don't serve God because of fear, I serve him because I love him. I love him because he first loved me. I know that without God sending his son I would be unhappy, insecure, no hope, and unfulfilled in life. I would be walking around in darkness with no direction constantly bumping into walls. I understand that as a believer in Christ my wants should now line up with God's purpose for my life.

What is sin and why is it here? 

Sin is an act of transgression against God's divine law. God is Holy, no bad, dark, wicked, or unrighteousness is in him. Sin is going against God's moral code. The Bible tells us that in the beginning God made Adam and Eve. The first humans on this earth. There was a place called Eden and there was a garden there. There were many trees I believe but the Bible speaks of two specific trees, one had the power to give life continually and one the power to take life spiritually and physically. God instructed Adam not to eat fruit from the tree of knowledge of good and evil.

Gen 2:15-17 15 And the Lord God took the man, and put him into the garden of Eden to dress it and to keep it.16 And the Lord God commanded the man, saying, Of every tree of the garden thou mayest freely eat:17 But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, thou shalt not eat of it: for in the day that thou eatest thereof thou shalt surely die. During this time Adam and Eve only knew about Good/Righteousness because they only new the things of God. God never intended for mankind to know or experience anything bad, evil or dark. Nevertheless, he didn't make robots. You may say why was the tree there? I believe to give mankind a choice to choose their creator over the created. Long story short satan came in the garden and tempted Eve to eat of the forbidden tree by decieving her. She ate and gave Adam some to eat. Since Adam is the first of mankind sin came in the world through him when he disobeyed God. Every human after Adam is descendants of him. Therefore every human is born in bondage to sin. This means we will automatically have sinful desires until we are born again through the Jesus Christ. We are born with a disposition to sin.

Remember I said God is Holy and sin is unholy so sin seperated Adam and Eve from God. This means sin separated us from God. Romans 6:23 "For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. Remember God told Adam "the day you eat of that tree, you will surely die." The penalty for sin is death physically and spiritually. Just think the bad things people do end in destruction. It's fun in the beginning, it feels good in the beginning but once it has you in it's grips the fun end and the consequences come knocking. The good feeling is gone. You never get to the point where you are fulfilled. You always feel like something is missing, there has to be more. That feeling is telling you that you are in darkness seperated from your creator. Your spirit is yearning for God but because you're in darkness you don't know it. Nevertheless, no matter how crazy our decision making is/was God loves us. It broke his heart the day he had to seperate himself from his creation. On that day we became enemies to God. BUT! God had a solution. He knew that no matter how many sacrifices we offered we couldn't save ourselves from sin. Knowing what sin was just made it more tempting. Just think you don't really like sweets like that,  but soon as you start a diet you want sweets. When you're told you can't have something you want it more until your thinking is transformed. So God sent a perfect sacrifice to free us from the dispostion to sin. He sent a way to bring us out of darkness into his marvelous light where we belong. He sent us a way to be able to choose him, because our oppurtunity of choice was taken. John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

Through the death, burial and ressurection of Christ we now have an chance to live a life eternal with God. Once we repent (turn from sinful desires in your heart), be baptised and filled with the Holy Spirit we become a new creature. 2 Corinthians 5:17  17 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. We were made for God's purpose and pleasure. We were made to fulfil his will. God wants the best for us literally. The best is not necessarily the most expensive things that we think about. God does allow us to get those things from our hard work, but he really doesn't care about that. His best is for us to have hope, a future and an expected end. Before choosing Christ we are born with a future of Hell, fire and brimstone. This is not because God is mean, it's because this is the punishment for sin. God keeps his word and stay true to his moral code. We change our minds and actions all the time, God doesn't. He is exact. Since God knew that was our end he sent a way of escape. He paid for our salvation with the blood of his son. God didn't give us sinful desires, satan did by decieving Eve. Jesus didn't die so you could do what you want. He didn't die so that you could live in sin freely, you was already doing that. He died so that you could live the life God intended for you from the beginning of Creation. Jesus look on the sins of the world so we could live an everlasting life with him instead of in Hell. 

Back to the question at hand. 

You are not already forgiven. 1John 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. If we confess our sins, repent (turn from them) and except his son, then God will cleanse us from all unrighteousness. Romans 10:9-10That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with your heart you believe and are justified, and with your mouth you confess and are saved.

The choice you have to make. Do you want to live in bondage to satan and sin? No man has two masters, it's either God or satan. The only way to God is through Jesus because sin seperated us. If we don't believe in Jesus and follow his commandments we are enemies to God. When we live in sin we choose satan as our master by default. Nevertheless, if you want to be saved from eternal damnation and disposition to live a sinful life, THERES NO TIME LIKE THE PRESENT. God knows everything you''ve done and still loves you. He is waiting to be reunited with you. It brings him joy at the thought of you choosing him. Ask God to forgive you of your sins, call them out by name. He already knows, turn from your wicked ways. Accept Jesus as your personal savior, Believe in your heart and Confess with your mouth and you will be saved. If you don't have a place of worship that you attend you are more than welcome to contact me. I will give you the number to my overseers so that you can get baptised. We meet on line every Thursday.  God loves you, Jesus died for you and now you can make the most important decision of your life. I look forward to hearing from you.